RT Journal A1 Clark M T1 NO more apologies JF JAMA JO JAMA YR 2012 FD November 21 VO 308 IS 19 SP 1983 OP 1984 DO 10.1001/2012.jama.10596 UL http://dx.doi.org/10.1001/2012.jama.10596 AB My memories following the crash are sketchy at best. I knew I had been in a motor vehicle collision. I remembered that it had just started to rain as I set off to meet my friend for dinner and that when a deer jumped out of the trees onto the road, my reaction was to swerve. Things get fuzzy after that, and all I have are seconds of time to mark the days: The first sound of shattering glass as the firefighters broke out my windshield. Going through the sliding door and under the fluorescent lights as we entered the emergency department. Waking up to all the tubes and lines in place. Gathering courage as I lay there trying to wiggle my toes, and saying a prayer of thanks when they moved. Confusion. Pain.